Here i will post random lyrics i have wrote over the years, some of these date back to 92, Please do not copy or steal any of these

These dreams turn to nightmares,
eyes like holes stare, turn around run and hide,
nothing takes away from the fact that you
are fixing to die, spirits call out and laugh at
your panic, this abandoned land of misery,
you see them marching through weeping, the procession
has began, somber music fills the air, eyes stream tears filled
with despair, you stop to reflect and realize your
looking at your own body being lowered into the ground,
then you realize as the gatekeepers words
start to sink in, this funeral procession is for you sir

Thoughts of suicide
Pierce my head sleeping in wake (my screaming mind)
Death will greet me so warm

I seek the legions of sorrow,
I know there will be no tomorrow,
So much of me has died,
Cold winds of loneliness in which i confide

A voice of fear speaks in me
Why should you live when you don't need to be

my soul so cold, It died long ago
No need to be afraid, I've been told

Use the fear as a guide

Say hello from the grave to those
whom pretend, Where have they been?

This dawn fading into light, Day moves on without notice giving way to the misery set before me...

Life like suicide, Tears blood stained cried, Dead and dying more, end it please, this life blackened with spore, rotted right out from beneath me, never even noticed it gone, twilight mind running, nightmare reality not escaping me


The mourning dimension is opening


The end will soon be complete

The wind whispered her name, It carried on the breeze like death cloaked in misery, Far be it from the light to say be gone, Help me now i have become lost in this,eyeless and dreamless running through with backwards pulse grinning...The Mourning Dimension is opening

From Life Til Death The Cycle Of Static Runs Deep And Ragged

Radiating Throughout And Inside, Green And Black Soundwaves

Mind Control The Old Fashioned Way

Do It Yourself And Hope For The Best, While Everyone
Else Is Led Astray And Down That Long Tunnel Brainwashed By Something
Corporate Never Realizing That The World Hates You And For What Its Worth
I And Me Hate You As Well, Let It All Go, End It Now And Go Back To Nothingness,
Learn To Live Without Living And Fly Without Moving, Mind Trips Taken Without No
Ticket, Fly Away, And Cease To Exist, Take Your Time Taking Your Life, Starlight
Gleaming Off Of This Rusty Knife, They Say We All Float Down Here, So Come Down
To Play, Goodbye And Good Night, Hope You Enjoyed The Fall Out, Its Nice When
The Radiation Says Hello

Im drowning in the dry air

Choking on dust

As we come together for the final moment

I cant help but feel the emptiness of the situation

And the cold blue dead of the static between us

I wasnt meant to feel this i dont think

And when all is said and done i really dont think anyone is

The cruel joke called sanity, And its many delusions of happiness

It wraps itself around my brain
Suffocating my insanity into submission

So a mask it becomes, And i hide there often

Waiting for the end

ANXIETY INFECTING ME
crawling inside, twisting its blackened claws into
my brain, poisoning my will and crippling my sanity

BLINDING MY REALITY
washing it away in a flow of static and noise
turning in and out back and forth, tapping me
on the shoulder, laughing as it hides

KNOWING THE END IS NEAR
yes, and how or when it got here is not the point
can you make it go away?

no!

welcome it, embrace it.
say hello and goodbye

learn to except pain and misery as a part
of this eternity of nothing
slowly grinding away into
a pile of metal shavings on the ground
washed over by the stain of time


AND WHEN IT GETS HERE
learn to suffer correctly

except without question or personal thought

deal with it

adapt to it with a shameless blank mind

overcome the oppression enough to gather
the will to wither away

wither away

And we would go on as though nothing was wrong.
And hide from these days we remained all alone.
Staying in the same place, just staying out the time.
Touching from a distance,
Further all the time

Today is a good day to die?

Sorrows stalking, Blackness looking just over my shoulder

Is this the end? I hope, But i hope not, To much not enough

Hate it all but not everything, Time melts, Dust floats away
with the wind

One more day among many that never seem to end

Dreaming in a awakened state, Aware of the images drifting past as we depart from mortal tissue, The exit from subconscious thought keeps the duldrums at bay, Dark night sky wrapping its tendrils into and without, Walk towards the Stars, At home in the away, Away from humanity and its many flaws, Live to know this fear of not existing and the wonder of afterlife journeys

The day you die is just like any other day
only shorter

The meaning of life is that it stops



(This one is not mine, Its taken from one of my favorite movies)

Into nothingness, the mist hangs heavy, Its creeping along the floor
It fills all space, Black, Falling fast, The fear is hypnotic,
The anxiety and wonder are overwhelming, Hands pulling me down,
Down into the pit ive fallen in

A pit of waste collected by life and when your at
The end of it all

Your left with what? A choice, Jump, Dont jump, Depression is
like gravity suffocating me, Depression is like a long lost friend whom you hate

The weight of the world is squeezing the life out of my lungs

Life may stop but the end continues on forever and ever,
The nothing moves across the ground, The sharp painful ground
at the bottom of the pit of my mind, In complex patterns,
Moving towards me, Like tv static, Nothing can stop it,
Nothing can, nothing will, shadows dance around me,
in circles, Slapping and hitting my skin, Terror strikes,
As the nothing binds with my flesh the mist floats down,
Inhaling it into my lungs, Bliss, Yes, My brain knows
no fear right now, Death is coming soon but my soul does
not care, Or has death already arrived? It has a home not
far from here, Anxiety melts away, Lie down for sleep, Eternal,
Never to see the light of day again, Has life ended?, He has forgiven

God please help me to see the wrongs and help me right them,
Help to see past this misery that for so long has consumed me,
The thought of no thought left as i decide to leave this mortal
coil, Then the white light makes its way into my brain,
Hope?


WHAT A DAY...

beyond death, beyond the end
flatlined, i knew it was time
fields of nothing, flying so fast
how did i get here, this far
black clouds in a grey sky,
just breathe

Being dead and thinking dead thoughts with the promise of lucid past images.

Drifting into the shadows of a realm just outside of our own.

But never losing sight of the sights not found.

Past life suicide. green light and sound.

Hiding in the open wondering why and how.

Make it quick so we dont slow down.

Gone

Forgotten

Never was

Who cares

Lifes end is a welcome friend, Stepping inside the outside
to a place unknown, To be part of the past,
To be part of anothers story of things that once were
or to be forgotten like you never had been,
Float towards the light,
Its a safe place


Confusion is the welcome mat to the door of perception,
Creeping, Crawling, Dragging, Along a broken surface,
Trying to find a point to stop, And reflect on the pain,
Never ends, Never could, All the eyes staring at me.

Laughing

Waiting

The nothing is consuming my mind

A black hole, slow motion self destruction

A silent universe seeks my dead
thoughts

My thoughts each time I die

My thoughts are taking form

Floating into the night

Throughout the day

living only in sleep, drowning sanity
with their black stone grasp

Poisoning my mind

No longer lost in the sky

Death welcomes me from my ashes in the ground

Welcome home, To a place ive known for a long time

Rewind the day, Life is over


Winding down to a distant reason

One that makes to much sense, Take you time taking your life

Living nightmare, Forced to be, Forced
to suffer

In emptiness and fear
manifested deep inside
not feeling right in this skin
The end never felt so good
Not for me this life
In solitude again
In this world im living in
I can't get my head to feel right

Traveling through these plains of dead things, Rotting, Looking, Always trying to touch,
The electric drones floating through the air, Eating the sanity of what used to be,
Filling my mind with thoughts of static green doom, This subconscious manifestation
of a nightmare frequency not to far from my reality, keep telling myself it was more
than a nightmare, As i slowly open my veins to let out the flow of life

Time tears a hole in existence,
trembling hands scatter my skin turned dust
into a transparent space,
scattering into nothing

As the dust melts away and my skin falls off into the dry air i sit as i fall apart and think whats left, The emptiness and somber weight of gravity suffocating my sanity, until that sanity no longer exists, and then all that is left is the sheer will to die...

Theres eyes

All over and under

Along and between
Watching me
Blue in the blackground
Faint hues of death smells
The dust of life settles on
My skull

Walking into the light, Above and beyond, Years of pain gone inside the strings and tones, Soul swelled within, Turmoil gone and new life begins...

The light inside is bright and hides all the scars caused by years of self abuse, God dwells within...


REGRET

(Now it seems to be me who pulls myself down and it seems to me I am my own worst enemy, Kept in mind move on and never stop moving forward, It's funny how reality can pass you by, Miles between before you realize its gone, get it back before its gone to long, Ive been nearly ruined from pride and now I realize that when all is said and done and i look back on the years wasted i regret, I've cried myself dry, No limit to this self inflicted pain, What to gain, The stains of time run deep and stretch wide, Covered in filth drowning in yesterdays waste...)